Month: December 2015

Visualizing 2016

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New Year’s Eve was always one of my favorite holidays because getting hammered is encouraged. It was an excuse to dress up and throw down. People who didn’t celebrate the same way I did were “boring” and I avoided them at all costs.

As of today, January 1st, I have officially been sober for one month. Perhaps a month of clarity guided me towards a clean way to ring in the new year: creating a vision board.

When I told people what I was doing for New Year’s Eve, I got a lot of questions. I took these questions and put together a guide to show you what a vision board is and how you can make one, too. It’s not too late to create your own vision board for 2016! Continue reading “Visualizing 2016” →

Binge Drinking & Blacking Out

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Binge drinking is the act of consuming alcohol solely to get drunk. Blacking out is typically associated with this behavior. A black out is when you drink so much that your brain literally stops creating memories. When someone is in a black out, they’re fully conscious. They can carry on a normal conversation, drive, even have sex - unfortunately they often can’t remember much of it.

Until the last year or so, this was the only style of drinking that I knew about. I learned how to shoot Jack Daniels and chase it with soda. After a few months of “training”, I no longer needed the soda. Before going out, I was the cheerleader for pre-gaming. While getting ready to go out, my friends and I would take shots. We justified this by telling ourselves, “The more we drink at home, the more money we’ll save when I make it to the bar.” In actuality, we were just getting drunker and ended up being more frivolous with our money. This led to a string of poor choices at the bar. Continue reading “Binge Drinking & Blacking Out” →

Where it all Began

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Alcohol and I crossed paths when I was 15. We fell in love for a short period of time, but I soon left him for another love - drugs. My first night in the other realm was with my high school crush, James. At school we would talk about rock n roll and I would listen to him talk about his parties. James was the guy to know because he smoked pot with his parents and they let him have friends over to do the same. Since I was a child, I was fascinated with the 1960’s scene - Warhol, The Doors, Hendrix, Lou Reed. When James told me about his parties, I pictured a fabulous Warholian get away . One night, I finally attended. Continue reading “Where it all Began” →

SobrieTea

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Hi. I’m Tawny and I have a drinking problem. Sobriety is something I’ve been flirting with on and off for awhile. Last year, I was sober for three months, but my heart wasn’t completely in it. I even wrote this article for Elite Daily about how three months of sobriety changed my life and led me to a healthy relationship with alcohol, but my heart wasn’t completely in that either.

That article was published in April 2015. In June, I sold nearly everything I owned, quit my job, packed two suitcases, and moved to New York City. I didn’t know anyone here and I had no idea where I was going to live, but I knew I wanted to pursue my writing career. That was the only certainty I needed. Continue reading “SobrieTea” →